There are times when I just feel a need to write. I'm not sure what I want to say, nothing profound is stirring in my soul, but I feel the need to write. Ever since I was a little girl I have wanted to be a writer. I want to share my thoughts, ideas, hopes, dreams, and fears on paper. I want others to read what I write and understand me, and perhaps themselves, a little better.
The desire to write is a need deep inside of me, albeit one that gets shoved out of the way in the busy-ness of life. As a wife, mother, children's pastor and leader of leaders, one can imagine I have lots to write about, though very little time to do so. For most of my life I have just pushed these desires to the side, thinking eventually I'll get to them later. A great idea or poignant life lesson will come along, and I'll push it aside for later...but by the time later comes, the idea is all but gone. I am left with this feeling that I had something waiting to burst forth, but cannot remember what it is.
What is an aspiring writer to do? I write for work, little bits in the church bulletin, items that need to be communicated, brochures for events, etc. My lead pastor says I am good at it, and that makes me smile, but it does little to satisfy my need to write. I journal, silly little things that happen in my day, thoughts that are rambling through my head at the time I pick up my pen, whatever flows through to the paper. There is no rhyme or reason, and I secretly fear that someday my journal will be found and the person reading it will stare in disbelief at the pages and wonder about my sanity. I blog...when I have time to put words into the computer and ponder over them, nit-picking how I said this, or how that line came across. Half of the posts I start never get published.
Neither of these really satisfies the longing inside me to share my thoughts, feelings, experiences, imagination. How can I change that? How can I satisfy the longing deep inside me to write? A very wise woman shared with a group of aspiring bloggers that she went to writer's conference. Several days and workshops about writing, and she took 2 words away from her experience there..."Writers write." Plain and simple. She shared those words almost 2 years ago, and they have haunted me ever since.
Today, I make the choice to no longer allow those words to haunt me, but instead allow them to spur me onward. I will write. Even when I'm not sure what to say, I will write anyway. Perhaps I will be astonished at what bursts forth. Perhaps I will be embarrassed. Either way, I will be doing what writers do...Writers write.
If you happen to be reading this, I invite you along on the adventure. I will warn you, I cannot predict what will happen. Some days I will have nothing to say...other days I won't be able to stop the flow of words being transferred from my heart and soul to the keyboard. God has placed this desire within me to write. I choose to put it to good use.
What desire are you shoving aside? I encourage you to stop putting it aside and to live the adventure God has for you! Share your journey along the way.
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